Japanese pop icon Hikaru Utada announced on her blog today that she will finally be releasing a new best album titled “Utada Hikaru SINGLE COLLECTION VOL.2.”  This happy announcement came with a bit of heavier news as well; the singer will be going on hiatus.

The best album will collect the past six years worth of music from the singer, such as “dareka no negai ga kanaukoro,” “Be My Last,” and “Beautiful World.”  There will also be some new tracks from Hikaru Utada on the album, so it will be quite the exhaustive collection of her work for the past several years of her career.

Hikaru Utada explained the reason for her hiatus on her blog:

    I have been working as an artist since I was 15 years old ,and because of that, a part of me has stopped growing.  But as a human being, it is an important part.

So after years of working solely as an artist, the singer has decided that it is time to spend some time being Hikaru Utada the person.  The date of her return to music is unknown, but she continued on her blog to say, “If I can grow as a person, then I think people will want to listen to my music!”  She followed it up with a positive, “I don’t know if I’ll be gone for two years or five years, but I will come back bigger than ever.”

Can't get past the fact that I don't live for myself
but live according to others...

looking forward to life?

Those who express the wrongs they see
and commit wrongs of their own

And no matter what, you can never run away from your past
Everything always ends up intertwining
It hurts
And you can't erase it from your mind
But you learn to face it and accept it
So that you can move on
There is always a crossroad
Need to man it up.
<3
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Sometimes your eyes turn green with envy
And you fail to remember
That you have been blessed as well

Learn to apologize when you get into an argument. It shows you value your relationship more than your pride.

now you just can't be all talk and no walk
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just share your thoughts/feelings! opens up new doors
silence keeps it closed and daunting
*umma
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it was the way that she sang the song...
and the underlying meaning of the words..
that left me choking on tears
unable to comprehend
the sheer intensity of the relevance it had in my life
but my inability to put it into words
who could even fathom such a feeling
utterly indescribable
i just don't know what to say.
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feeling the love
my parents are finally sympathetic towards my testing hahah
understanding feels great

and you can't be bitter
people are raised differently
people are different.
there's always a reason for everything
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Why do you have to be so negative?
Can't you say something positive?

You don't know what I'm going through.
You don't understand.
You can't ask something like that from me. You have no right to.
I've been like this for far too long.
Why can't you understand?
It's not that easy. I'm tired. I'm hurt.

You're right. I don't know what goes on in your life.
I'm not going to try to prove you wrong because you're right.
It isn't that easy.
It's damn right tiring.
It feels like you're lying to yourself when you're pretending to be alright when you aren't.
But if you don't try
mark my words
you'll fall apart before you even know what the hell just happened to you
and the journey to getting back on your feet will only grow longer, and more complicated
so why do you have to wait?
why build up your downfall?
what makes you think that you'll have what it takes to deal with this looming mountain that you've created?
that's why you
you start right now
get the hell out of your little hole
right at this damn instant
stand up
face the world in all of its glory
its beauty and ugliness
then you're gonna cover that hole and never look back
so that once you turn around
you won't even notice it anymore
you won't know that type of life anymore
it'll be buried
and a damn garden will be there instead
filled with life and joy

Waiting for mom for 3-4 hours was not fun
I try to be cool about it
This time was going to be different
I wasn't going to sound hateful and bitter
But when I tell her that I called for for literally 2 hours straight
she just goes, "are you sure?"
instead of just apologizing
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Ate some supermarket meals
I really need to stop eating bad things
My stomach seriously cannot handle it
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blinds that block out all light at night
and slowly open during morning to let in light/wake up
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stressed? thoughts runnin amuck and negativity gnawing at your heart?
fresh air / physical activity/ love/ relationships
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Stressed?
Positive soothing activities (paint nails/beneficial to your well being) instead of negative activities that may somewhat soothe you but mostly hurt you

Seriously,
every times my parents attempt to.."parent" they don't know what the hell they are talking about
Just talk talk talk
ignore me all day
and raise your voice at me
pretending you know
BUT you don't know me at all.
thanks for the nice "conversation"
i hope YOU enjoyed it
JUST B/C YOU raise your voice at me
DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING
it doesn't mean you're right
it doesn't prove to me anything
it doesn't help me understand anything

i'm just left worse than before
even more lost
and just STUCK
and i'm the only one who can pull myself out

yeah, you've done your part
as long as you spew out nonsense every once in awhile
you tell yourself that you are doing fine

when are you going to stop looking at the surface?
what does my silence mean to you
what does pain look like to you

could you stop being the one to make me crack
when i'm in the midst of trying to deal with everything else?
everything that you don't know about?

maybe one day, you'll get to know the person that you call your daughter.
maybe one day we can finally TALK
hopefully it won't be as long as the 18 years that has already passed by
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you cry because you are tired
you are hurt
your world has turned upside-down
and you don't remember what the hell right-side up looks like anymore
you cry because you're broken
it was so painfully obvious to you
staring at all the gaping holes in yourself
the pieces of you that trail behind you
as you attempt to continue on
you know that if no one opens their eyes in time and sees the true you
that it'll be too late
you'd be swept up in the unforgiving winds
until you're lost
until you're nothing
then no one will ever be able to find you.

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if you can't stand
take my hand
i'd do what i can
i'd do what i can

what's the problem?
phone's running off the hook
you're sitting here
like a joke

more than this
more than this
show me that you're more than this

it's there
believe me
it's there
just gotta find it
and let the world see

that you can stand
that you won't crumble to your feet
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You need to keep in mind what is truly important, or then you’ll find yourself lost in everything that’s not—and before you know it, you end up spending years of your life fighting for the wrong things.

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studying all the psychology has allowed me to see how arousal sparks creativity
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where you try to do all the right things for your body
but end up hurting causing more harm to yourself by doing other things

-->like being concerned about eating healthy, but smoking

I don't want to just sing songs
I want to become the song
Understand the song
feel the song
live the song

out at the cafe with your precious people
enjoying sweet drinks or tea
and desserts

Still in the learning process; gaping holes of flaws; its a slow process, but i'm gradually learning