you are so rude
i hate you, why do you only strive to embarrass me and take everything out you feel on others?
you are the one who allowed yourself to feel this misery and stay STUCK
don't fucking dare take out your own pain, anger, and misery onto others when you have allowed yourself to become this way
fuck you
fuck your bitching

Every time she says something, I really don't know what to expect.
It's like an explosion that occurs out of nowhere. 
When she speaks to hurt, it's like sickening jolt
damn does she like to be creative in how she stabs you with words
leaves me in holes

the most paranoid, ocd, controlling, sneaky, just can't let it go person.. seriously gtfo

I look forward to not being tied down to things that I'm forced to go to--events where my absence would make no difference.

But for now, here I go.

girl-bonnie,Daphne
boy-kai, harry

name children
..lavender , violet, peach........? auggie

Japanese pop icon Hikaru Utada announced on her blog today that she will finally be releasing a new best album titled “Utada Hikaru SINGLE COLLECTION VOL.2.”  This happy announcement came with a bit of heavier news as well; the singer will be going on hiatus.

The best album will collect the past six years worth of music from the singer, such as “dareka no negai ga kanaukoro,” “Be My Last,” and “Beautiful World.”  There will also be some new tracks from Hikaru Utada on the album, so it will be quite the exhaustive collection of her work for the past several years of her career.

Hikaru Utada explained the reason for her hiatus on her blog:

    I have been working as an artist since I was 15 years old ,and because of that, a part of me has stopped growing.  But as a human being, it is an important part.

So after years of working solely as an artist, the singer has decided that it is time to spend some time being Hikaru Utada the person.  The date of her return to music is unknown, but she continued on her blog to say, “If I can grow as a person, then I think people will want to listen to my music!”  She followed it up with a positive, “I don’t know if I’ll be gone for two years or five years, but I will come back bigger than ever.”

Can't get past the fact that I don't live for myself
but live according to others...

looking forward to life?

Those who express the wrongs they see
and commit wrongs of their own

And no matter what, you can never run away from your past
Everything always ends up intertwining
It hurts
And you can't erase it from your mind
But you learn to face it and accept it
So that you can move on
There is always a crossroad
Need to man it up.
<3
__
Sometimes your eyes turn green with envy
And you fail to remember
That you have been blessed as well

Learn to apologize when you get into an argument. It shows you value your relationship more than your pride.

now you just can't be all talk and no walk
--
just share your thoughts/feelings! opens up new doors
silence keeps it closed and daunting
*umma
--
it was the way that she sang the song...
and the underlying meaning of the words..
that left me choking on tears
unable to comprehend
the sheer intensity of the relevance it had in my life
but my inability to put it into words
who could even fathom such a feeling
utterly indescribable
i just don't know what to say.
--
feeling the love
my parents are finally sympathetic towards my testing hahah
understanding feels great

and you can't be bitter
people are raised differently
people are different.
there's always a reason for everything
__
Why do you have to be so negative?
Can't you say something positive?

You don't know what I'm going through.
You don't understand.
You can't ask something like that from me. You have no right to.
I've been like this for far too long.
Why can't you understand?
It's not that easy. I'm tired. I'm hurt.

You're right. I don't know what goes on in your life.
I'm not going to try to prove you wrong because you're right.
It isn't that easy.
It's damn right tiring.
It feels like you're lying to yourself when you're pretending to be alright when you aren't.
But if you don't try
mark my words
you'll fall apart before you even know what the hell just happened to you
and the journey to getting back on your feet will only grow longer, and more complicated
so why do you have to wait?
why build up your downfall?
what makes you think that you'll have what it takes to deal with this looming mountain that you've created?
that's why you
you start right now
get the hell out of your little hole
right at this damn instant
stand up
face the world in all of its glory
its beauty and ugliness
then you're gonna cover that hole and never look back
so that once you turn around
you won't even notice it anymore
you won't know that type of life anymore
it'll be buried
and a damn garden will be there instead
filled with life and joy

Waiting for mom for 3-4 hours was not fun
I try to be cool about it
This time was going to be different
I wasn't going to sound hateful and bitter
But when I tell her that I called for for literally 2 hours straight
she just goes, "are you sure?"
instead of just apologizing
__
Ate some supermarket meals
I really need to stop eating bad things
My stomach seriously cannot handle it
__
blinds that block out all light at night
and slowly open during morning to let in light/wake up
_
stressed? thoughts runnin amuck and negativity gnawing at your heart?
fresh air / physical activity/ love/ relationships
-
Stressed?
Positive soothing activities (paint nails/beneficial to your well being) instead of negative activities that may somewhat soothe you but mostly hurt you

Seriously,
every times my parents attempt to.."parent" they don't know what the hell they are talking about
Just talk talk talk
ignore me all day
and raise your voice at me
pretending you know
BUT you don't know me at all.
thanks for the nice "conversation"
i hope YOU enjoyed it
JUST B/C YOU raise your voice at me
DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING
it doesn't mean you're right
it doesn't prove to me anything
it doesn't help me understand anything

i'm just left worse than before
even more lost
and just STUCK
and i'm the only one who can pull myself out

yeah, you've done your part
as long as you spew out nonsense every once in awhile
you tell yourself that you are doing fine

when are you going to stop looking at the surface?
what does my silence mean to you
what does pain look like to you

could you stop being the one to make me crack
when i'm in the midst of trying to deal with everything else?
everything that you don't know about?

maybe one day, you'll get to know the person that you call your daughter.
maybe one day we can finally TALK
hopefully it won't be as long as the 18 years that has already passed by
_

you cry because you are tired
you are hurt
your world has turned upside-down
and you don't remember what the hell right-side up looks like anymore
you cry because you're broken
it was so painfully obvious to you
staring at all the gaping holes in yourself
the pieces of you that trail behind you
as you attempt to continue on
you know that if no one opens their eyes in time and sees the true you
that it'll be too late
you'd be swept up in the unforgiving winds
until you're lost
until you're nothing
then no one will ever be able to find you.

_
if you can't stand
take my hand
i'd do what i can
i'd do what i can

what's the problem?
phone's running off the hook
you're sitting here
like a joke

more than this
more than this
show me that you're more than this

it's there
believe me
it's there
just gotta find it
and let the world see

that you can stand
that you won't crumble to your feet
__

You need to keep in mind what is truly important, or then you’ll find yourself lost in everything that’s not—and before you know it, you end up spending years of your life fighting for the wrong things.

__
studying all the psychology has allowed me to see how arousal sparks creativity
__
where you try to do all the right things for your body
but end up hurting causing more harm to yourself by doing other things

-->like being concerned about eating healthy, but smoking

I don't want to just sing songs
I want to become the song
Understand the song
feel the song
live the song

out at the cafe with your precious people
enjoying sweet drinks or tea
and desserts

Still in the learning process; gaping holes of flaws; its a slow process, but i'm gradually learning

Superchic[k] - Stand in the Rain 

"  You don't drown by falling in water. You drown by staying there. "

 

don't do this. don't do this to her. you know the person who will end up hurting at the end is you. 

 

"Do you enjoy living?"
yes
"Why?"

"Because I am true to myself. I do what I want to do."
"Isn't that hard? People would hate you."

"But to hate oneself is worse."
To be different is never easy. But if you accept what you are; if you're true to yourself and love yourself people would also love you. 

 

 precious people

 The People We've Become

manners

 Memories unexpectedly blossomed after hiding for so long.

One of the best feelings was playing basketball on the basketball court of the middle school in Nanjing, China in the dark of the night and the humidity of the area--until I could barely breathe and move. It was refreshing.

 "If anything happened to you, I would never forgive myself," She would rather he hate her than she hate herself."

 

not ready to live

 

he couldn't cry
even though the most important person in the world was taken away from him
and the only one who could save him from falling was that very person who was taken from him.

clayton

to gain strength from the past and move forward rather than digging a hole
choose to be happy

Dr.Hiroshi Date
Professional Thoracic surgeon

mantras/beliefs


always smile to the patients
hope gives me strength
always remember that surgery is frightening--its most dangerous when you stop thinking so
bonds help create strength
smile and conversation

http://www3.nhk.or.jp/nhkworld/english/tv/genre/interview.html

spend a few minutes preparing your mind for what you are going to do

depression? you fight it.

remember that he does care
<3
get out of the house more. away from..uknowho

A: Alright, let's go!
B: Oh, that clock is slow.
A: By how many minutes?
B: Two hours.

"They keep saying, 'Let's go and find mummy today' - then they say,
'if not today we'll find her tomorrow.'

"It's what gives me strength to keep on looking for her."

You're so amazing.

obstacles are what you see when you lose sigh of your goal
dont judge anybody before you check yourself out. you're lucky when it is your fault becuse you can correct the situation
a man can scuceed anything with unlimied enthusiasm
figure out what you want and learn how to ask for it
to get the right answer, you have to ask the right questions 

shake me from this dreamlight

If you don't speak up, then I am not going to understand am I?

stop your dilly-dallying!
there is work to be done!

sometimes life is so short
it ends for some before they even knew it started


*buy dslr
leisure reading; big smart interesting book

the idea of:

More Trouble Than They're Worth

 

entirely and undeniably happy; content.

Saturday Night
-Went to bed at 9PM
Sunday Morning
-Alarm set at 6:15
-Woke up at 9AM?!~

a feeling of comfort surrounded me
my mind was completely blank
my fear and embarrassment disappeared into the autumn sky

I wonder if I'll make it in time
-You'll make it.

-My Girl (TV ASAHI)

Donkeyboy - Ambitions

A fictional disease "Abicere Leprous" which is caused by people giving up on their ambitions in life. Symptoms start with a vesicular skin rash, and it then spreads and destroys the entire body. The disease is almost always fatal within three years of catching it. The video interviews people infected with the disease and asks them how they were infected and what they are doing with their lives.

Now, I can't behave
I feel it in my feet on the streets
But don't you know?
There's something I can feel when I breathe

I told you once
You're breaking into separate parts
But don't you know?
It's something that I can't live without

And if somebody's going to make it
then this somebody ought to be you
And I keep telling my reflection
Ambitions are already starting to fade

I can't tolerate
The feelings that I feel when I feel
But don't you know?
Some feelings never seem to let go 

Like a silverblade
I cut my way out of control
But don't you know?
Some blades will cut you right to the bone

And if somebody's going to make it
then this somebody ought to be you
And if somebody's going to fake it
then this somebody, somebody is you
If it's me that was going to take it
then I know that it wouldn't be straight
And I keep telling my reflection
Ambitions are already starting to fade 

I Can't tolerate...
(Can't tolerate)
I Can't tolerate...
(Can't tolerate)

And if somebody's going to make it
then this somebody ought to be you
And if somebody's going to fake it
then this somebody, somebody is you
If it's me that was going to take it
then I know that it wouldn't be straight
And I keep telling my reflection
Ambitions are already starting to fade 

And I keep telling my reflection
Ambitions are already starting to fade

Bloop.Bloop.Love

I love gardening! So peaceful and fun!
I can't wait till my basil grows flowers!
I hope I can revive the wheat grass! *crosses fingers!*

Idiom:

make a mountain out of a molehill

To exaggerate a minor problem.

 Today didn't go well. I couldn't climb out of the dark trap of negativity. Tomorrow might not be perfect, but I need to try my best! 

Even if you are lonely or sad, I will not cry.
I will keep it in, keep it in and keep it in again. Why would I cry.
Hey, even if you have difficult and tiring things,
think of me and smile brightly
Like my killer smile.
You know how bright my killer smile is. Now, smile!!
BIGGER!! Now you can laugh, right?
Answer the phone with a bright voice, okay?
One, Two, Three!!

didn’t want negative feelings between them

i've made mistakes
granted they were big mistakes
was it my fault that my path changed?
or is this really what was supposed to happen?
facing my failures over and over again
it's okay...
as long as i don't stop.

yell yell yell
yell all you want
curse at us all you want
talk down on us
continue your painful attack of words
for the smallest reasons
actually, for "reasons" that don't even qualify as reasons
continue breaking our hearts
continue your threats, accusations, and promise of inflicting pain
don't think about stopping for even a moment
don't you DARE
because that's what you do best right?
hurt the people you "care" about
you've broken me so many times
scratch that
i let you break me
but that was the past
i'm not going to crumble because of you anymore
you don't have the right
i won't let you

i never know when i sleep anymore
lost in my thoughts
lost in the future
its like i'm just drifting in and out of consciousness/time
i'm awake when i should be asleep
i'm asleep when i should be awake
i am asleep and then awake and then asleep and then awake
my day and night are intertwined
my consciousness and unconsciousness is blurred
just drifting by

"We were the guinea pigs
But I will show you that the guinea pigs are really tough"

-Lee Hong Ki


He is tired. He has worked hard. Please keep that in mind. Think about others. Think past what you think it is.

The world isn't what you thought it was
It hasn't just tilted off its axis
Your whole world has been turned upside down
tossed around
slammed to the ground
And the reality you knew was crushed beneath it without a second thought

Sad and scared
sad and scared you'll be forgotten

 

  I can't believe how happy I was today.

It really was too good to be true.

I knew it wasn't going to last.

The me at 2PM sitting in the car on the way home 

did not expect this night to be one of the 

 most painful and saddest days of my life.

I'm so tired and so sad

My eyes are red and dry

It's so late--but I can't go to sleep

It's ridiculous really

I'm too sad to go to sleep

haha self pity. screw you.

What can I say to make you understand?

Majors/Careers/Future Ideas

-Psychology
-Teaching
-Therapy
-International something (relations/etc)
-Teaching English in another country in high school
-->translating programs; working up from there

*Graduate School* soka has english teaching program i think


How you carry yourself/speak --reflects who you are in the inside
i have to believe that everything in my life led me here
in my life for a reason--to show me..to never

Allow each point of tension to be filled with your breath. Allow these places to open and relax. Pay close attention to the state of your body as this tells you a lot about how you move through the world.

Idleness may sound like bliss, but purposeful work enriches our lives"

http://static.allkpop.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/03/20110315_shinseunghun_concert-460x611.gif
I wish I could go to the Shin Seung Hun concert. I really think that it would be the best concert that I would have ever gone too.

As I wait for the last college acceptance letter and receive rejection letters, If I don't get in, I would like to drop everything and leave. Head to another country and try to make it on my own. Go through the struggle and emerge with a fulfilling life that I would have never known if I had chosen the safe path. I hope I get in so I can join my friends and have a great college experience also though.

All I can do is pray. Pray. Pray. Pray. Pray. Pray. Pray. Pray. Pray. Pray. --that everything will be okay.

http://news.harvard.edu/gazette/story/2008/06/text-of-j-k-rowling-speech/

“What we achieve inwardly will change outer reality.”

 Plutarch quotes

we cannot allow ourselves to be overcome
pick yourself up and move on
I will never let failure stop me
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent
Oscar Wilde: "The less said about life's sores the better.
something else is more important than fear
who you think you are and who you can be; the key is making the journey

Jaejoong Killer Elle Movie

Kim Hye-Ri

 It's about emotion and effort. These qualities will really take you a long way.

 There is always something so beautiful about people. Something everyone possesses yet something that is unique to each individual. Sometimes people aren't aware of it. Sometimes people haven't found it yet. It hasn't been triggered yet. The perfect combination of circumstances hasn't allowed for it to show itself and manifest. Sometimes everyone else but that person can see it. But it is wonderful once we are aware of it. That is our essence. We are lucky to be able to see another person's beauty which is fragile but powerful.

10:06 pm
    LOLL thanks Minh City LOL
    i think i like calling you that hahaah!

10:06 pm
    you think?
    you doubting yourself
    lolz

stop seeing things that aren't there
imagining that people don't care for you
just because they don't do everything for you/meet your expectations

self dependent

"I thought I was dying." 
crying saying, ‘Please come back, don’t leave forever.’”

you will do fine you won't die . people before you have done it and are fine. people befor eyou have made mistakes. its not so bad

He says He just wants people to be happy

videoblog

you should be loved every day by yourself

“… just be yourself! Smile and be positive.
Whatever you give out it will come back. It’s important to have faith in not only people but also yourself. Believe in yourself and try not to compare yourself to others. A lot of times we are driven by guilt, anger, past or even other people’s expectations that we forget to live life for ourselves.”
—     Lindy Tsang (Bubzbeauty)[Nee Hao Magazine, UK]

What do you like doing in your spare time, how do you relax?

Whenever the World seems to be moving too fast for me, I just play my favourite song and paint. I really think it’s the simple things in life that keeps it upstanding. I have always been an arty girl so I like to get crafty.

don't take yourself too seriously

Desperate for life.

You were just so sick of everything
Dealing with the same shit day after day
Not just from the world
But from yourself

That was what tipped you over the edge
You couldn't stand who you were
Your saw no value in yourself

It was so damn ironic
That the person you disliked the most in the entire world
Was staring at you in front of the mirror day after day
And it seemed like nothing you did could change that

You tried putting on a smile
Every time you left the house
Tried opening your heart to a world of possibilities
But every time you came home
It just wasn't enough
 You couldn't stop your tears

And before you knew it
You were drowning in them
Already lost in a sea of tears
You couldn't breathe anymore

But yet you still put on a smile every time you left the house
And even though so many people saw you
No one could see you suffocating
Desperate for life.
________


You get sick of people pushing you around
telling you what to do
how to do it
what to think
how to see it
You want to be your own person. 
Even if you aren't 100% correct, no one ever is
But the fact that you believe strongly in something and stand up for it
--that is the only way to create something for you to hold onto
--rather than abandoning ship time after time
according to others.
____
You should really be ceareful
you took away her last hope of finding confidence
for your own selfish gains

Do you think I say these things just to say them?
These aren't just simple statements that I make
These are words from my heart
layered with hope for you to take notice
layered with sadness from within

Story:

The lights flickered in the train
Concrete scneary in the dark tunnel
He was on his way home from practice
His lone figure slumped tiredly against the window
Who was he really?
Everyone at SM Entertainment knew him as Kim Junsu
But he wasn't Kim Junsu until 8 years ago.

____

He had the money, the house, the cars--he had everything.
But the loneliness permeated through him even in his sleep..

-Younha-Strawberry Days, Street, Don't Cry, Memory, Hating, Lalala, My song and...

-Dbsk: Before you go

Is this what Victoria meant? Something that moved me...

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/42058349/ns/world_news-asiapacific/?gt1=43001

 "This is Japan's most severe crisis since the war ended 65 years ago," Kan told reporters, adding that Japan's future would be decided by its response. 

A young man described what ran through his mind before he escaped in a separate rescue. "I thought to myself, ah, this is how I will die," Tatsuro Ishikawa, his face bruised and cut, told NHK as he sat in striped hospital pajamas.


Osuga said she had been practicing origami, the Japanese art of folding paper into figures, with her three children when the quake stuck. She recalled her husband's shouted warning from outside: "'GET OUT OF THERE NOW!'"
She gathered her children — aged 2 to 6 — and fled in her car to higher ground with her husband. They spent the night in a hilltop home belonging to her husband's family about 12 miles (20 kilometers) away.
"My family, my children. We are lucky to be alive," she said.

"I have come to realize what is important in life," Osuga said, nervously flicking ashes from a cigarette onto the rubble at her feet as a giant column of black smoke billowed in the distance.


Etsuko Koyama escaped the water rushing through the third floor of her home but lost her grip on her daughter's hand and has not found her.
"I haven't given up hope yet," Koyama told public broadcaster NHK, wiping tears from her eyes. "I saved myself, but I couldn't save my daughter."

"The Japanese spirit has an amazing capacity to turn tragedy into triumph. I have faith in that spirit."
 

 

____

“Live life with such… clarity.”

“You know, the first few seconds after waking up in the morning when you don't remember about all of the problems and worries in your life- it’s clarity. I try to live my life like that all day every d “Live life at your own pace.”

“Time may not stop for me, it goes ahead with or without me but it doesn’t mean I have to catch up with it. I live at my own pace, not at someone else’s.ay.”

“Being in SM- one of the big 4 companies doesn’t always mean success, I mean look at some of the past artists. Success isn’t measured but how we’ll you’re known, it’s if you feel like you’ve done well for yourself- not the fame or money… at the end of the day that doesn’t matter.”

“What helped you get through it?”

“Positive thinking, crying it out, figuring out myself and what I wanted and needed, and you…

“So, when does life begin then oh wise one?” Kyu Hyun asked, half jokingly.

“I know nothing, but I think it begins whenever you want it to…” She said, with a smile. “Could be yesterday, today, or tomorrow- anytime you want.”

“Then what was everything before that?”

“Practice.” She chuckled.

“When did your life begin?” He asked curiously.

“The day I decided to leave SM, what about you?”

“I don’t think I’ve started my life yet…” He admitted honestly, “It feels like something is missing… till then.”

“At your own pace…” In Seul said.

“I don’t have to catch up with time…” Kyu Hyun said, with a smile and a small nod.

ｗｈａｔ　ｒ　ｕ　ｂｏｒｎ　ｆｏｒ

“No, I think this is what I was meant to do…” She said, without any hesitation and a smile still upon her face. “The music I do now, the lifestyle I live, it suits me, matches me. I think I went in for the wrong reasons thinking it was what I wanted. But this is perfect for me…”

“I think people have the wrong perception when they want to become a singer- that if you’re an idol you’ve made it but to be honest, it’s harder and it’s a bit lonely at times

________________________________________________________________

    dude its just college
    you're not gonna be impacted much by this in the future
    sure maybe you'll be devastated now
    but.. not in 15, 20 years

    the college you go to does not define your success
    if you wanna be successful in life you will do whatever you need to do reach your goal

    college does not control that
    stop imagining it

    wake up and just do what you have to do

 ________________




The world around us
connecting us together
You see me before you
But I'm secretly fading away
Don't let me fade away
Listen to my silent pleas
Look into my eyes
notice the dullness
take note of the lack of life
It's draining away
Hurry before its too late
Before time runs out
and there is no chance for hope

You were so sad
Because you couldn't bring the same happiness
You just couldn't bring the same joy to people
Your efforts were futile
It was as though you were the dark cloud
that covered everyone in a shroud of darkness
That was what you were
and you hated it
You wanted to be that shining light
And as you cried inside
It rained
And the darkness deepened
As watered blurred everything into a sad choking mixture
causing everything to disappear
disappearing down a drain of nowhere
to a place where nothing exists
no light
no darkness
just nothing.

I couldn't get out of here
No matter how hard I tried

__

I am tired of holding your hand
If you are not going to try getting up
I will only hold your hand
if you put in effort
You are not going to place all your weight on me
You are not going to ask me to pick you up
and carry you through life
You will NOT ask that much from me
You have NO right to do so
I do not understand why you would even try
But you have
You did
And I can not stand for that no more
Did you fall again?
Then get back up
I am tired
My hand is red and swollen
from trying to help you up
and hold you up
I'm sore
I'm tired
As you look down at the ground
from your fallen position
Do you not see my weary face?
No
All you see is the ground that you have fallen on
All you can think about is how this world has shoved you down
You see your scraped knees
But what about my red and swollen hand
You never noticed
Because you were so busy staring at the ground
You were letting it hold you down
Don't blame gravity
It's all you starting from there.
Nothing but YOU is keeping you down
On your knees
The longer you stay in that position
The more pain you will cause yourself
Do you not see that?
As you focus in on your scraped knees
and your fallen self
You lose sight of everything else
Think again now
Are your eyes truly open?
Do you think this is reality?
Your hurt knees?
Your eyes might be open
But you are not seeing anything
There is more to what you see than just yourself


http://www.chucknorrisfacts.com/chuck-norris-top-50-facts

balancing work, health, fashion, love

DBSK-TAXI

Sometimes I can't differentiate
Between my true self and fake self
Is the fake me truly a part of me?
Maybe it is the true me
I can't tell
Everything has become blurred
These lies that I live in slowly wraps itself around my heart
And as you live out a lie
in front of everyone you know
the tightness in your chest grows
you are falling further from who you are
and you pretend
you just pretend
in order to prevent yourself from falling into pieces
from crumbling away and disappearing into nothingness
from the cold hard truth
that you don't know who you are
no one knows who you really are
even when they think they do
maybe no one will ever know
no one will ever find out
your life was just one inexplicably beautiful lie
fabricated to the smallest detail
stitched perfectly to hold you prisoner forever
in its perfect garment covering the ugly truth
from being bare to the world

shibatora

What's most important to you?

I would like to wait until they can truly smile again. 

Please wait until I can speak with you properly

How old were you, when you stopped telling others what you were thinking and feeling--because nobody cared enough to listen? 

The way I am now, I can do these things...these things and these things..but not these things, these things, and these things.

I gave up. I stopped trying to care. I stopped saying a word because my feelings never reached them--no matter how hard I tried.

But you need to realize, that eventually, your feelings will reach them. They will. They always do.

The memory she remembers the most clearly is the saddest one. 

Even if it was pathetic, you faced her properly at least. You aren't the kind of person to run away. 

Give me back my tears! 

Having someone to talk to is like a detox for your heart. 

It's because you're doing everything so half-halfheartedly, that she wouldn't even turn around for you. 

You are not the only one in pain. Everyone moves forward and lives on. 

There is this pattern with you. You are always going to follow it until you get rid of the same old story. 

You look for what you think is happiness.

Super Junior gives me strength/hope/dreams

Sometimes I am afraid of living a mundane life filled with the same things day after day.
Living a planned out life...
wasting away amazing possibilities of only God knows what.

Where did the friendships go?
Where you were so close
that you would be broken without them

don't have the image of insanely hard workers~eventho

BREAK OUT OF THIS RUT
EVEN IF YOU DON'T FEEL IT
PULL YOURSELF TOGETHER

Brother Sharp

Homeless man noticed for homeless chic style and looks; is mentally ill; swarmed by the media--yet not provided help?

If you are not good with words, smile instantly.

Super Junior & Big Bang

the most important date to me was the last time i saw him
in the hospital, he quietly left the world

Take back that pitiful face
I'm sorry for showing this side of me

oh well. i guess i'll just..

although we may _____, we'll face upwards and keep walking

always in your heart, the smiles of our family

smile,  laugh

there were so many pictures of us together
permanently capturing moments
of love and friendship
as i look through the countless pictures
i can't help but wonder
exactly when did things go wrong?
was it the 8th picture?
the 29th?
the 485th?
and its sad
trying to figure out which of those precious memories
marked the beginning of the downfall in your relationship
it really hurt

sit back and think of how your global experiences
helped you create so many friendships

sometimes you are stuck in the middle of the war
unable to escape
and sorry that you couldn't help bring peace

Are you yourself?
no, no
you are different
you are another person
but you just don't know who
so you pretend for now
just act
because you don't know who you are yet...
you can't change now
this is who they know you as
even if it isn't truly you
wait for a new beginning
before you attempt once again
to figure out whose body you're in
whose mouth you speak with
whose eyes you take in the world with
who heart you are lost with

A me who is:
-responsible-->less procrastination; organized; find out what i need to do
friendly/outgoing
less uptight
-past self -happier

Forgot the strength of the old bus days
brought forth by big bang and the other old songs I got from naomi
Even though their eyelids are drooping, they gather strength again
Seungri, Leeteuk

whatever happens happens

you were running blindly
the scenery was blurred with your tears
everything was a mess.

you didn't mean to be so complicated
filled to the brim with problems
requiring people to look Underneath the underneath

Is it happiness when you say


I REGRET NOTHING
I'M GONNA DO ANY DAMN THING I WANT

Had an INCEPTION dream
Dreamt I was dreaming and woke up from the dream --while also realizing I was in a dream
But I was still dreaming @_@

__
Need to take better care of mental and physical self to be able to work, play, anything V_V

Compartmentalizing: putting your thoughts or feelings into a separate compartment in your mind so that you can focus on what needs to be done in the present moment

Sometimes it's just as simple as saying this is what's going to happen, and this is why I'm not going to let it happen

"I REGRET NOTHING!

Sometimes, you don't know how draining your ways of living are--the way you sit, the things you do, the things you eat, the things you think about, the constant frown on your face---and the world is different...better--once you break out of it--open your eyes and feel the difference

It's all about hitting that mental switch
"I just want to hear it from you. Facing up to your own problems is the first step towards moving past them. "

___


He worked hard, harder than anyone else in that damn company.
Finally, it all paid off--all those blood, sweat and tears were finally paying off
His dream was coming true--he had become a singer--just like he always wanted
Where was he supposed to go from here? Is this the end? What do you do when you've reached your dream?
He decided to move onto another goal--become the company president.
Now where is he left?
As he stands there watching below--at those who are working hard to accomplish their dreams.
Now--it's time for him to help others realize and reach their dreams..

**try out that hanger and pliers trick to create a book stand/supporter

A day with Victoria Li


I learned so much!!
She is the BEST!! ^_^ NEVER FORGET!!

-be on top of things
-don't be lazy
-proper/organized
-don't have too many things going on at once
-few tabs
-happiness is not defined by success
-don't be stressed/upset, find the humor instead

Anthony Neely 倪安東 (ní ān dōng)

 Album: Lesson One

Far East Movement - Rocketeer ft. Ryan Tedder