Desperate for life.

You were just so sick of everything
Dealing with the same shit day after day
Not just from the world
But from yourself

That was what tipped you over the edge
You couldn't stand who you were
Your saw no value in yourself

It was so damn ironic
That the person you disliked the most in the entire world
Was staring at you in front of the mirror day after day
And it seemed like nothing you did could change that

You tried putting on a smile
Every time you left the house
Tried opening your heart to a world of possibilities
But every time you came home
It just wasn't enough
 You couldn't stop your tears

And before you knew it
You were drowning in them
Already lost in a sea of tears
You couldn't breathe anymore

But yet you still put on a smile every time you left the house
And even though so many people saw you
No one could see you suffocating
Desperate for life.
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You get sick of people pushing you around
telling you what to do
how to do it
what to think
how to see it
You want to be your own person. 
Even if you aren't 100% correct, no one ever is
But the fact that you believe strongly in something and stand up for it
--that is the only way to create something for you to hold onto
--rather than abandoning ship time after time
according to others.
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You should really be ceareful
you took away her last hope of finding confidence
for your own selfish gains