Seriously,
every times my parents attempt to.."parent" they don't know what the hell they are talking about
Just talk talk talk
ignore me all day
and raise your voice at me
pretending you know
BUT you don't know me at all.
thanks for the nice "conversation"
i hope YOU enjoyed it
JUST B/C YOU raise your voice at me
DOESN'T MEAN ANYTHING
it doesn't mean you're right
it doesn't prove to me anything
it doesn't help me understand anything

i'm just left worse than before
even more lost
and just STUCK
and i'm the only one who can pull myself out

yeah, you've done your part
as long as you spew out nonsense every once in awhile
you tell yourself that you are doing fine

when are you going to stop looking at the surface?
what does my silence mean to you
what does pain look like to you

could you stop being the one to make me crack
when i'm in the midst of trying to deal with everything else?
everything that you don't know about?

maybe one day, you'll get to know the person that you call your daughter.
maybe one day we can finally TALK
hopefully it won't be as long as the 18 years that has already passed by
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you cry because you are tired
you are hurt
your world has turned upside-down
and you don't remember what the hell right-side up looks like anymore
you cry because you're broken
it was so painfully obvious to you
staring at all the gaping holes in yourself
the pieces of you that trail behind you
as you attempt to continue on
you know that if no one opens their eyes in time and sees the true you
that it'll be too late
you'd be swept up in the unforgiving winds
until you're lost
until you're nothing
then no one will ever be able to find you.

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if you can't stand
take my hand
i'd do what i can
i'd do what i can

what's the problem?
phone's running off the hook
you're sitting here
like a joke

more than this
more than this
show me that you're more than this

it's there
believe me
it's there
just gotta find it
and let the world see

that you can stand
that you won't crumble to your feet
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You need to keep in mind what is truly important, or then you’ll find yourself lost in everything that’s not—and before you know it, you end up spending years of your life fighting for the wrong things.

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studying all the psychology has allowed me to see how arousal sparks creativity
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where you try to do all the right things for your body
but end up hurting causing more harm to yourself by doing other things

-->like being concerned about eating healthy, but smoking