Friendships From Yesterday
You tell yourself that you are fine
Constantly reassuring yourself
As you walk through the crowds
And no one sees you
They see your clothes, your shoes, the bag you are holding
But they don't see you
They see the person beside you, behind you, and everyone around you
And all you can think is,
"I'm right here too."
This one's so sad. <3 But gosh, I can relate all too well. x_x I hate the feeling that no one acknowledges you. It's not even about presence / noticing you. It's like outright deeming you unworthy.
ReplyDeleteYes! Exactly. I know they can see my body, but it is like my face/self/identity is not there to them. And especially if it is people that you talked to/know. If they only acknowledge the person next to you, it is as though you aren't as good as the person next to you. You aren't worth their attention as much as the person next to you.
ReplyDeleteIt happened twice today when I was walking with someone. The second time it happened today really burned into my mind/memory because the person used to be somewhat close to me for a while.
I will post something right now in response to this...
<3 My heart goes out to you. <3 Be strong~!
ReplyDeleteI know. Sometimes I'm just like.. "It's okay. It's okay. Maybe they just didn't see me." Or I try to just forget but when it happens like that.. I'm just like.. damn.. I tried to see them as better than this but for them to continue treating me like this just.. hurts.
♡
Yeah, especially to those who you used to be really close to. It makes me feel like I have become a worse person. Like my past self was better. I am no longer acknowledge by them because my current present self has changed so much in a bad way--as though something is now wrong with me~not good enough. I guess it is a part of life.
ReplyDeleteHmm. I think it's good to not blame others, but it's also not good to to blame yourself. I'm sure you're changing for the better. Maybe they are too. I think sometimes we drift away from others and even though it hurts to have such a big loss.. I guess we just have to think that's the way it is now. You can try to make things normal again, and if it works out, then great, but if it doesn't, I think you should just let go and move on. Well, of course it depends on the situation but I think in each case, whether it all works out in the end or not, contains a lesson we can learn from. While it's happening, you'll feel sad no matter what, but I guess, to look at the bright side, just think that everything happens for a reason.
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